Again and Again

20 05 2008

There are so many things I wanted to say but can’t even find the words nor even a simple opportunity to say them. I question myself when I will finally be saved. True enough I find happiness in lending my hand out but speaking out is a different story. It’s just too hard. I don’t even know what to feel and think anymore. Making it worse is after I lend my hand, a little while later, they fall again. Again and again and again and again. I keep myself positive and optimistic, happy and cheerful, but there are times I just feel so drained. I wonder where the real me has gone. But now is not the time for me to be this way. School starts again soon. I will find my answer to life and finally find my meaning. I can only hold on.